Chuckster

For the past few years, I have stoped praying to God. I could no longer see what’s the point of asking for grace and miracles from my Savior. This causes me to feel pity to those who devote much of their time on praying and asking for mercy. What’s the use of begging for so many things to God if he already gave me little things to be able to live by and achieve my dreams. I really think alot of people fail to realize this. God gives us blessings every moment of our lives, it’s just a matter of finding them and be contented by them. I believe people tend to be selfish hence ask for things they don’t need moreover deserve.

I have so many problems and angst in my life today. So many, that it’s so difficult to wake up each day to face them. I dare not ask for God’s help. There’s a part in me that is so afraid for yet another rejection or disappointment from the heavens. God made me disabled in some facets of life. He put a burden on my speech that caused me to communicate in such extreme difficulty. It’s so hard for me to say the things I want to say to people when the need arises.

However, God gave me little things for me to live a good life. He gave me a special pair of eyes for me to see what normal eyes couldn’t. He gave me a heart, though broken most of the time, for me to experience simple joys like sharing time with real friends. I couldn’t ask for more. I dare not beg for more. The past few years made me realize that I have enough blessings for me to live a miraculous existence for myself and others. Although I couldn’t say this to God in words, I’m very thankful for everthing.

Hoping you could feel the same way.

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